Hi friends, it's me again. Long time no write...I apologize for that. Life has been crazy busy but I want you to know that I have missed you. Each and every one of you. Fact. There is so much that I would like to catch you up on, but today, right now is not the time. I promise, though, I will!
Today, this date - November 18th - is a date that I will forever remember. Unfortunately, it's not a date that brings me happiness. This date is cursed.
It was one year ago today (on this date) that I was officially diagnosed with cancer. I remember that day very vividly and it's not one that I will soon forget. It's been a year...a whole year...and yet, it feels like it was just yesterday. I am so amazed and proud of all that I have gone through in a year. Today, it feels so good to say, I am a survivor!
As I write this post, I am laying on my couch with severe pain in my back. I just returned home from a 5 hr trip to urgent care and after two bags of IV fluids, 3 blood draws, and a urine sample, the docs believe I have contracted salmonella. They not only believe that I have it but they also believe that it's affecting my kidneys (hence the pain.) So I spent my sunday, today of all days, at the doctors...again. Awesome.
This friends, is why I am declaring this day - November 18th - cursed.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Happy Notes!!
What an incredible weekend! It was packed with so much fun, love, achievements and firsts! I am almost overwhelmed with such an amazing weekend, that I am finding it hard to focus enough to write!!
T's happy notes part....whatever number, lol!!
Game time - Kit Kat had an awesome soccer game on Saturday. His team played a very good team and they pretty much got slaughtered, but my son played his heart out and I couldn't have been more proud! Among other great plays, one in particular earned him the "team star player" of the game. While playing defender, he made an amazing play by blocking the ball from becoming a goal...using his face. Yes, his face. I don't think that's exactly how he intended on blocking the ball, but it happened. He hit the ground, started crying in pain, but walked off the field on his own. After reassuring him that there was no blood or broken bones, he went BACK into the game on the next sub round and didn't ever give up! It was a definite proud moment for sure! Way to go buddy!!!
Race preparation - Saturday after Kit Kat's game, all the kids and I headed downtown to pick up my race bib and t-shirt for my race on Sunday morning. I was so excited that I spent the rest of the afternoon preparing and getting ready for the next day. I was so excited to be running in my first 5k, that I found it very difficult to get to sleep! Nerves maybe? I think yes!
Race time - As my alarm went off, I was already awake! I showered, got dressed, added all my accessories and was feeling great about my big upcoming event. My hubby brought me breakfast and I was off! Picked up my race buddy and we headed downtown to meet up with the thousands of others who were all there to "Race for the Cure." As we filed into the line in the street for the start, the nerves set in. Was this really happening?? As the bell sounded, we were off. From the minute I started, I ran. I didn't stop running. After 41minutes and 3.106 miles later, it all became a reality. I DID IT!!! I completed my first 5k run and it felt AMAZING! I was so proud that I could feel my eyes tearing up but I kept smiling!!! I gave my friend a huge hug and then we took a picture to capture this moment, this feeling, this day forever!! Absolutely amazing!!
First steps - Next Sunday marks a big milestone for me. My baby girl, my beautiful Almond Joy, will turn 1!! I have always said that she will walk before her first birthday and until this day, it just hadn't happened yet. Tonight while playing with her on the floor, that changed. I stood her up and said, "Come on little lady, let's walk!" I stood her up, let go of her hands, stood facing her about 3 feet away, and she walked right over to me, smiling the whole way!!! I was so happy and so proud that I almost cried! Instead, I threw her in the air (she loves it), kissed her on the cheek and told her to do it again....and she did! Looking like a little drunkin sailor baby, she did it over and over until she just didn't want to anymore. It was amazing! I can't believe that my baby girl is ready for that...where does the time go!? She's just growing up SO fast!
Well friends, that was my weekend! It was so exciting and eventful and I am so sad to see it go! How were your weekends? What fun and exciting things happened in your life!?
I feel so blessed with this life that I live and I thank each and every person who is a part of it!! CHEERS!
T's happy notes part....whatever number, lol!!
Game time - Kit Kat had an awesome soccer game on Saturday. His team played a very good team and they pretty much got slaughtered, but my son played his heart out and I couldn't have been more proud! Among other great plays, one in particular earned him the "team star player" of the game. While playing defender, he made an amazing play by blocking the ball from becoming a goal...using his face. Yes, his face. I don't think that's exactly how he intended on blocking the ball, but it happened. He hit the ground, started crying in pain, but walked off the field on his own. After reassuring him that there was no blood or broken bones, he went BACK into the game on the next sub round and didn't ever give up! It was a definite proud moment for sure! Way to go buddy!!!
Race preparation - Saturday after Kit Kat's game, all the kids and I headed downtown to pick up my race bib and t-shirt for my race on Sunday morning. I was so excited that I spent the rest of the afternoon preparing and getting ready for the next day. I was so excited to be running in my first 5k, that I found it very difficult to get to sleep! Nerves maybe? I think yes!
Race time - As my alarm went off, I was already awake! I showered, got dressed, added all my accessories and was feeling great about my big upcoming event. My hubby brought me breakfast and I was off! Picked up my race buddy and we headed downtown to meet up with the thousands of others who were all there to "Race for the Cure." As we filed into the line in the street for the start, the nerves set in. Was this really happening?? As the bell sounded, we were off. From the minute I started, I ran. I didn't stop running. After 41minutes and 3.106 miles later, it all became a reality. I DID IT!!! I completed my first 5k run and it felt AMAZING! I was so proud that I could feel my eyes tearing up but I kept smiling!!! I gave my friend a huge hug and then we took a picture to capture this moment, this feeling, this day forever!! Absolutely amazing!!
Well friends, that was my weekend! It was so exciting and eventful and I am so sad to see it go! How were your weekends? What fun and exciting things happened in your life!?
I feel so blessed with this life that I live and I thank each and every person who is a part of it!! CHEERS!
Saturday, September 15, 2012
My first 5k
Friends, do you remember a couple months back when I said I was going to run my first 5k?? Well, I'm super excited to tell you that it's TOMORROW!!!
I have been training now for about 8 weeks...running 2-4 miles twice a week. I've been building up my stamina to run faster longer. Tomorrow I am so excited to see just how well my body holds up and even though I am running an un-timed race, I will be timing myself! :)
I cannot wait to accomplish this major milestone!! I know that no matter what, it is going to be FUN and I can say I DID IT!!!
Thank you for your support and encouragement, I'll let you know how it goes! :)
CHEERS!!
I have been training now for about 8 weeks...running 2-4 miles twice a week. I've been building up my stamina to run faster longer. Tomorrow I am so excited to see just how well my body holds up and even though I am running an un-timed race, I will be timing myself! :)
I cannot wait to accomplish this major milestone!! I know that no matter what, it is going to be FUN and I can say I DID IT!!!
Thank you for your support and encouragement, I'll let you know how it goes! :)
CHEERS!!
Saturday, September 1, 2012
The new Mr. and Mrs.
What a beautiful day for a wedding! I could not be more happy for my beautiful cousin and her new husband! The weather was perfect, the ceremony was so sweet and the whole day was just full of love for these two lovebirds! I am so honored to be able to have shared in their special day!
Friends, remember those table centers I was stressing about?? Yeah, I got them all done!
Friends, remember those table centers I was stressing about?? Yeah, I got them all done!
Remember M&M's tux I was worried about not getting in time? We got it!
Unfortunately for my cousin, though, there were some rough spot throughout the day.The caterer was 2 hours late, the food was not correct once they finally got there, one of the flower girls dresses went missing and the wedding didn't start on time.
HOWEVER, even through all that, the wedding was beautiful and everyone had a great time!
I will leave you with a couple more pictures of this wonderful day. Weddings make my heart truly happy!
CHEERS!
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| Gummy Bear Wedding Cake |
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| Gorgeous Bridal Bouquet |
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Wedding Fever
Friends, I am in total wedding mode! There are only two days left until my beautiful cousin's wedding and I have so much I have to get done! With this crazy busy work week, I almost forgot all about table centers (which I am hand making and putting together all by myself) and getting M&M's tux!! Good grief where has the time gone?
Thank goodness I am taking a half day off tomorrow so that I can start preparation on the flowers and vases for the 15 table centers that need to be completed by Saturday! I can't believe time went so quickly and her big day is almost here! Thank goodness for Costco and Safeway floral for coming to my rescue when I found out the florist who I had originally picked out to order the flowers had fallen through! Also, thank goodness my cousin's wedding colors and flower choice was somewhat popular in order to get the flowers last minute! Other than time, I am feeling pretty good about the table centers. I just hope that I am not up all night tomorrow getting them completed!
To add to my wedding chaos, my darling husband has decided to have his fantasy football draft tomorrow night and host it at our house! SO, on top of doing the 15 table centers, I have to clean my house, prepare for guests and participate in the fantasy draft all tomorrow night. All I've got to say, is bring it on. Bring.it.on!!
T-48hrs to wedding day...LETS DO THIS!
CHEERS and have a happy Friday :)
Thank goodness I am taking a half day off tomorrow so that I can start preparation on the flowers and vases for the 15 table centers that need to be completed by Saturday! I can't believe time went so quickly and her big day is almost here! Thank goodness for Costco and Safeway floral for coming to my rescue when I found out the florist who I had originally picked out to order the flowers had fallen through! Also, thank goodness my cousin's wedding colors and flower choice was somewhat popular in order to get the flowers last minute! Other than time, I am feeling pretty good about the table centers. I just hope that I am not up all night tomorrow getting them completed!
To add to my wedding chaos, my darling husband has decided to have his fantasy football draft tomorrow night and host it at our house! SO, on top of doing the 15 table centers, I have to clean my house, prepare for guests and participate in the fantasy draft all tomorrow night. All I've got to say, is bring it on. Bring.it.on!!
T-48hrs to wedding day...LETS DO THIS!
CHEERS and have a happy Friday :)
Monday, August 27, 2012
Back to School
Even though the official start to the school year for students doesn't begin until next week, the teachers and staff members are back in full swing preparing the building for the students' return. Supplies are being ordered, classrooms are being organized, materials are being printed and stocked...and I am feeling overwhelmed already.
I love my job, I love our staff and I love our students. However, I don't love cleaning, preparing and looking at the huge piles of summer paperwork I have laying on my desk. The feeling is overwhelming, makes me panic and causes me to stress. This happens every year and after six years, one would think I'd be used to it. Unfortunately, such is not the case. Good news, though, it is only a temporary feeling and I know that it will pass.
So here I go...one week until students start flooding the halls and the phones start ringing off the hook. I can do this, I know I can! My plan of attack -start from the top, organize and knock out one pile at a time! Ready.Set.GO!
Happy last week before "Back-to-school" chaos, friends!
I leave you with my very funny friend, Billy Madison. Enjoy!
I love my job, I love our staff and I love our students. However, I don't love cleaning, preparing and looking at the huge piles of summer paperwork I have laying on my desk. The feeling is overwhelming, makes me panic and causes me to stress. This happens every year and after six years, one would think I'd be used to it. Unfortunately, such is not the case. Good news, though, it is only a temporary feeling and I know that it will pass.
So here I go...one week until students start flooding the halls and the phones start ringing off the hook. I can do this, I know I can! My plan of attack -start from the top, organize and knock out one pile at a time! Ready.Set.GO!
Happy last week before "Back-to-school" chaos, friends!
I leave you with my very funny friend, Billy Madison. Enjoy!
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Soccer Jam
What a busy (but fun) Saturday! Started the day off right with my coffee, packed up the kiddos and headed over to the high school for the official start to Kit Kat's soccer season! The Red and White Jam is the season opener and it was a blast!
Kit Kat has played soccer since he was in Kindergarten and of all the sports he's tried and played so far, soccer is his favorite. This year he is playing on a fairly new team, most of the kids have never played before and well, quite frankly, I don't expect them to win very many games...but he is having a BLAST and that's all that matters! (unless you ask my highly competitive husband...)
Yes, today was a great day! The sun was shining, the team had a great first game and we got team photos taken! Today was also our day for team snacks and thanks to Kit Kat for helping me pick them out, they were a big hit with his teammates! I love the fact that I get to be apart of these fun times...I like being a "soccer mom!"
I hope that you all had a fabulous Saturday as well! Catch you on the flip side!
CHEERS!
Kit Kat has played soccer since he was in Kindergarten and of all the sports he's tried and played so far, soccer is his favorite. This year he is playing on a fairly new team, most of the kids have never played before and well, quite frankly, I don't expect them to win very many games...but he is having a BLAST and that's all that matters! (unless you ask my highly competitive husband...)
Yes, today was a great day! The sun was shining, the team had a great first game and we got team photos taken! Today was also our day for team snacks and thanks to Kit Kat for helping me pick them out, they were a big hit with his teammates! I love the fact that I get to be apart of these fun times...I like being a "soccer mom!"
I hope that you all had a fabulous Saturday as well! Catch you on the flip side!
CHEERS!
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Can it really be?
Today I woke up and started my day as usual. Same morning routine getting into the "back to school" mode. Dropped the kiddos off at daycare, stopped for my morning coffee at Starbucks and was on my way into work when it hit me...my baby is almost a year old. Today, in fact, is her 11 month birthday.
My baby girl, my beautiful Almond Joy, is growing up way too fast. I am not ready for this. I'm not ready for all of her "firsts" to be my "lasts". I'm not ready for her to get bigger, smarter, stronger...I'm not ready for her baby days to be over. I'm not ready for her to grow up...I want her to stay little awhile longer! I want to watch her sleep in her crib, like a porcelain doll, hugging her lovie blanket and sucking on her paci. I want to hold her in my arms, cuddle with her and kiss her chubby cheeks while holding her chubby fingers in my hands. I want to watch her crawl around and explore the world before taking off running and chasing her around it. I want my baby to be my baby....forever!
They grow up too fast. I've been here with both the boys and for some reason, it's just a lot harder this time. Maybe it's because my heart knows that these moments wont ever happen again. Maybe it's because these last 11 months have been a whirlwind of emotions and challenges for me. Or maybe it's because she is my princess. No matter the reason, I just can't believe my baby is almost one.
Happy 11 month birthday, baby girl! Mommy loves you SO MUCH!
My baby girl, my beautiful Almond Joy, is growing up way too fast. I am not ready for this. I'm not ready for all of her "firsts" to be my "lasts". I'm not ready for her to get bigger, smarter, stronger...I'm not ready for her baby days to be over. I'm not ready for her to grow up...I want her to stay little awhile longer! I want to watch her sleep in her crib, like a porcelain doll, hugging her lovie blanket and sucking on her paci. I want to hold her in my arms, cuddle with her and kiss her chubby cheeks while holding her chubby fingers in my hands. I want to watch her crawl around and explore the world before taking off running and chasing her around it. I want my baby to be my baby....forever!
They grow up too fast. I've been here with both the boys and for some reason, it's just a lot harder this time. Maybe it's because my heart knows that these moments wont ever happen again. Maybe it's because these last 11 months have been a whirlwind of emotions and challenges for me. Or maybe it's because she is my princess. No matter the reason, I just can't believe my baby is almost one.
Happy 11 month birthday, baby girl! Mommy loves you SO MUCH!
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Happy Notes!
What a great weekend! My heart is happy after all the fun and excitement that this weekend brought me. I love being happy...its a GREAT feeling!
AdvoCare ~ Thank you for making my body feel and look great! Thank you for bringing friends, old and new, together for me to share your wonderfulness with them! Thank you for giving me the AMAZING opportunity to change my families life! We will become great friends. It's fact!
Friends ~ Thank you for coming to my very first AdvoCare mixer! Thank you for supporting me and loving me and believing in me! Thank you for buying AdvoCare, helping me reach my goal and allowing me the chance to coach you to reach your own health and fitness goals! Thank you for everything you do each and everyday to encourage me and inspire me. I APPRECIATE YOU!
Adidas Employee Store ~ Thank you for having cleats in my sons size at an excellent price! Soccer will be much better for him now that he officially has shoes to play! However, we must have a talk about your choice of colors for shoes these days...electric yellow and striking orange are a bit TOO MUCH craziness for this momma to handle. (Not to mention they are hideous together as a color combo. Hideous.)
Mom and Dad's house ~ Dad, thank you for being a football coach and collecting all the random leftover water bottles. As crazy as one would think, that pile of water jugs actually worked awesome for Kit Kat to have for soccer to stay hydrated. Those suckers are expensive and you saved my pocketbook! Also, thank you for M&M's new bug catcher. He LOVES it! A happy 4yr old makes for a happy momma! Thank you!
Weather ~ Thank you SO MUCH for cooling down just ever so slightly. Ten degrees makes a huge difference in my non-air conditioned house. I was actually able to sleep last night and it was fantastic! I know we've had this talk before, but I really like 78 degrees. Lets hover there, yes?? Thanks for understanding! ;)
Friends, how were your weekends? I hope that you did something fun or at least something that made you happy! Have a great week!
CHEERS!
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Goodbye Summer
High temp for today....102.
High temp for tomorrow....100.
High average temp for the last week....97.
Summer weather is very much here to stay but unfortunately, my summer break is officially over.
It's a bittersweet day friends.
Back to work I go. Back to the craziness of getting the school ready for a 1000+ students in less than two weeks. Back to the mad scramble of office supply ordering and filling for the teachers. Back to the daily chaos that I call my job...(a job I truly love!)
Goodbye to the sleeping in. Goodbye to the fun and random outings with my kiddos. Goodbye to the lazy days of hanging out with my husband and late nights of watching the Olympics. Goodbye to sleeping in the living room because our bedroom is so darn hot we would melt. Goodbye comfy clothes.
Goodbye Summer. It was nice while it lasted! Let's meet again soon...OK!?!
Monday, August 13, 2012
Life
Some of us are born into this world and breathe the air of life without a destination or plan; lost, unhappy, alone or scared.
Some of us are born into this world and create life along the way; day to day, happy, and satisfied.
Then there are those of us who are not just born, but rather come bounding into this world with a life full of determination and purpose; setting goals, spreading love and living each day to the fullest!!
I have experienced my fair share of hardships in my life but I completely and honestly believe that every piece of the puzzle is what makes me who I am today. All of the challenges, all of the heartache, all of the pain and glory...every lesson or chapter of my life is what completes my life story.
Ten years ago my life changed in the blink of an eye. Someone took something that wasn't theirs to take. They forced their way into an innocent life; creating everlasting scars. This selfish act has impacted everyday of my life, but it does not define me. It has no power over me. I am stronger, wiser, and more determined than before. I am a fighter. This is me, my life and I am in control now!
My husband, my kids, my family, my friends, my accomplishments and achievements are things that define my life! I live with purpose and determination! I will shoot for the stars and settle for nothing less!
The life that I live, the people who are a part of it and with all the love my heart has, I would not change a thing! My life is not "perfect", but it's perfect for me!!
Friends, what about you? What is your story? Life is happening, here and now. Don't let it pass you by!!
Some of us are born into this world and create life along the way; day to day, happy, and satisfied.
Then there are those of us who are not just born, but rather come bounding into this world with a life full of determination and purpose; setting goals, spreading love and living each day to the fullest!!
I have experienced my fair share of hardships in my life but I completely and honestly believe that every piece of the puzzle is what makes me who I am today. All of the challenges, all of the heartache, all of the pain and glory...every lesson or chapter of my life is what completes my life story.
Ten years ago my life changed in the blink of an eye. Someone took something that wasn't theirs to take. They forced their way into an innocent life; creating everlasting scars. This selfish act has impacted everyday of my life, but it does not define me. It has no power over me. I am stronger, wiser, and more determined than before. I am a fighter. This is me, my life and I am in control now!
My husband, my kids, my family, my friends, my accomplishments and achievements are things that define my life! I live with purpose and determination! I will shoot for the stars and settle for nothing less!
The life that I live, the people who are a part of it and with all the love my heart has, I would not change a thing! My life is not "perfect", but it's perfect for me!!
Friends, what about you? What is your story? Life is happening, here and now. Don't let it pass you by!!
Sunday, August 12, 2012
Wedding Season
Most of you may not know that I have a degree in Hospitality, Tourism and Events Management as well as a Certificate in Professional Bridal Consulting and Wedding Planning. Yes, it's fact! Ever since I can remember, I've wanted to be a Wedding Planner when I grew up. I went to school, put in the hard work but never landed my dream job...or at least not yet! ;) Call me crazy, but I love everything about weddings!
Tonight was the beginning of wedding season for me! My beautiful friend, Sofie, married her best friend and the love of her life, Mark, in a stunning evening wedding. As the sun started to set, a new marriage and life chapter began! It was an absolutely gorgeous day for a beautiful outdoor wedding! I could not be happier for the new Mr. and Mrs. Laymon! Love you guys :)
Next up, is my cousins wedding on September 1st and a long time family friends on September 9th! I am so excited for these two weddings because they will be unique and SO different from each other. I am also really excited for my cousins wedding because my very own M&M's will be her ring bearer...best one ever! ;)
Friends, what are your thoughts about weddings? Are you a lover or a hater? (of weddings that is!)
CHEERS!
Tonight was the beginning of wedding season for me! My beautiful friend, Sofie, married her best friend and the love of her life, Mark, in a stunning evening wedding. As the sun started to set, a new marriage and life chapter began! It was an absolutely gorgeous day for a beautiful outdoor wedding! I could not be happier for the new Mr. and Mrs. Laymon! Love you guys :)
Next up, is my cousins wedding on September 1st and a long time family friends on September 9th! I am so excited for these two weddings because they will be unique and SO different from each other. I am also really excited for my cousins wedding because my very own M&M's will be her ring bearer...best one ever! ;)
Friends, what are your thoughts about weddings? Are you a lover or a hater? (of weddings that is!)
CHEERS!
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Thursday, August 9, 2012
Happy Notes - Thankful Thursday
Hello friends!! Today has been a great day...this week has been a great week!! For today's Happy Notes, I am linking up with my beautiful friend Cami @ First Day of My Life for Thankful Thursday.
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Today I am thankful for...
...My Health...
...My Family...
...My Friends...
...My House...
...My Job...
I am also thankful for each and everyone of you who follow/read my blog! Without you, I have no reason to write. So I ask, what are YOU thankful for?
CHEERS!!!
(and happy blogging!)
PS. Go check out Cami!! She is AWESOME and she has ALOT to be thankful for this week.
Love you Cami, and congrats again :)
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Our Anniversary
Happy Anniversary to the most wonderful husband and my best friend in the whole world! I couldn't have chosen a better life partner or father for our children...I am so lucky!! Thank you for everything you do for our family and for making me feel like the most loved woman on earth! I love you more than words and will continue for many more years to come!
Our wedding cake :)
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Today is MY day
For the past month, I have been working toward a very personal goal. I joined this AMAZING company called AdvoCare back on July 5th and it has changed my life! I've dedicated myself to a lifelong change...one of health, strength, and personal growth! Today my friends, one month later, I am now an ADVISOR and part of one of the most AMAZING teams ever!!! Today is MY day. :)
I am a business owner and it feels amazing I say that!! I am on my way to making a better life for my family...a better future for my children. I am in control and nobody can stand in my way!
Friends, if I can do this, YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! I want to help you change your life :)
CHEERS!!
I am a business owner and it feels amazing I say that!! I am on my way to making a better life for my family...a better future for my children. I am in control and nobody can stand in my way!
Friends, if I can do this, YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! I want to help you change your life :)
CHEERS!!
Friday, August 3, 2012
Cancer sucks
Everyone we know has been touched by cancer in some way. My life has personally been touched by not only my own battle with cervical cancer but by friends and family who have battled different cancers, some won and some lost. Its such a terrible disease and reality is that it can happen to anyone at anytime. Today I share with you another story of a loved one who recieved his diagnosis this morning. He is my 19yr old cousin, Hayden.
After several months of not feeling well and several trips to the doctor, this last trip is the one that we will remember forever. Feeling weak and dizzy, he arrived at the doctor with blood levels far lower than any human should have. He was then rushed by ambulance to the hospital emergency room and underwent multiple blood transfusions and tests. He spent the night in the hospital with more tests in the morning as family stood by his side waiting for answers. As doctors closed in on the cause, stress and heartache set in. Prayers were said, hugs were given and tears were flowing. Once they had a diagnosis, a teenage boys life changed forever. This morning he was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL).
My heart is broken. His sister is supposed to get married September 1st, with her brother walking her down the aisle. As of right now, we don't know what will happen. So many questions, so little answers. He is undergoing ultrasounds to determine where it started and how fast it's progressed. He is being transferred to the cancer ward and has to undergo a year of aggressive chemo therapy. He has to stay at the hospital...he won't be coming home.
Although he may not read this, I need to get it out there. I heal with words. Hayden, this is for you:
There are no words that can take away your pain. There are not enough tissues that can dry your tears. I have no powers that can heal you or make life fair. But I have a heart that will love you forever. I have hands that you can hold, shoulders that you can cry on and strength that you can lean on for comfort and support. I will lend an ear you can talk to, a presence to sit with you, tears that will cry with you and arms that will hug you. YOU are a strong, stubborn, loving person who has enough fight to kick this cancers butt. WE believe in you. I believe in you. You have the biggest, strongest, most supportive family of anyone out there and we stand behind you the entire way. You will never be alone. We love you. Keep your chin up, stay strong and fight with everything you've got! You are in my prayers... I love you and I will forever!
Friends, hug your family a little tighter and a little longer today. Tell them you love them everyday. Life is too short.
After several months of not feeling well and several trips to the doctor, this last trip is the one that we will remember forever. Feeling weak and dizzy, he arrived at the doctor with blood levels far lower than any human should have. He was then rushed by ambulance to the hospital emergency room and underwent multiple blood transfusions and tests. He spent the night in the hospital with more tests in the morning as family stood by his side waiting for answers. As doctors closed in on the cause, stress and heartache set in. Prayers were said, hugs were given and tears were flowing. Once they had a diagnosis, a teenage boys life changed forever. This morning he was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL).
My heart is broken. His sister is supposed to get married September 1st, with her brother walking her down the aisle. As of right now, we don't know what will happen. So many questions, so little answers. He is undergoing ultrasounds to determine where it started and how fast it's progressed. He is being transferred to the cancer ward and has to undergo a year of aggressive chemo therapy. He has to stay at the hospital...he won't be coming home.
Although he may not read this, I need to get it out there. I heal with words. Hayden, this is for you:
There are no words that can take away your pain. There are not enough tissues that can dry your tears. I have no powers that can heal you or make life fair. But I have a heart that will love you forever. I have hands that you can hold, shoulders that you can cry on and strength that you can lean on for comfort and support. I will lend an ear you can talk to, a presence to sit with you, tears that will cry with you and arms that will hug you. YOU are a strong, stubborn, loving person who has enough fight to kick this cancers butt. WE believe in you. I believe in you. You have the biggest, strongest, most supportive family of anyone out there and we stand behind you the entire way. You will never be alone. We love you. Keep your chin up, stay strong and fight with everything you've got! You are in my prayers... I love you and I will forever!
Friends, hug your family a little tighter and a little longer today. Tell them you love them everyday. Life is too short.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
I know who I am
Look in the mirror,
Who do you see?
Through that broken smile,
Can you see the real me?
Once a little girl,
With a field of endless dreams,
Who now has become a women,
Torn and tearing at the seams.
Do you know anything about me,
More than just my name,
I know everything about you,
Because I know who I am.
~Anonymous
I believe that every person who walks I to my life is there for two reasons...They need my help or they are teaching me a lesson. Whatever it is, I am ready and waiting. So bring on life's game.
Who do you see?
Through that broken smile,
Can you see the real me?
Once a little girl,
With a field of endless dreams,
Who now has become a women,
Torn and tearing at the seams.
Do you know anything about me,
More than just my name,
I know everything about you,
Because I know who I am.
~Anonymous
I believe that every person who walks I to my life is there for two reasons...They need my help or they are teaching me a lesson. Whatever it is, I am ready and waiting. So bring on life's game.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Camping...sort of
For the past three days, I've been at scout camp with Kit Kat and his cub scout den. I don't think I fully understood what I was getting myself into when I signed up to go as a parent. Now that I have put in my time, this will be my first and last scout camping trip.
Our camp spot just happened to be the furthest from everything...1/4 mile up a vertical hill. No joke. It was miserable. Furthest from the bathrooms, furthest from the cars, furthest from all scout activites yet closest to the wetlands full of mosquitos. It was anything but awesome. Still, we managed to have (somewhat) of a good time!
The boys had a blast when it came to activities! They got to shoot archery, BB guns, go panning for gold, make gumball machines from wooden kits, go horseback riding, practice roping, do pioneering, learn about nature and camp skills like making apple cobbler over a camp fire. Two days packed full of events! They enjoyed the nightly campfire, the daily flag ceremonies, taking turns being waiters in the dining hall and even attending a flag retirement ceremony. They even enjoyed morning chores...feeding the horses, taking out the garbage, washing dishes and sweeping the dining hall. I think their favorite part was the Western Show on the last day put on by all the camp leaders. All in all, it was a fun couple of days and it will be a campout that they never forget!!
Our camp spot just happened to be the furthest from everything...1/4 mile up a vertical hill. No joke. It was miserable. Furthest from the bathrooms, furthest from the cars, furthest from all scout activites yet closest to the wetlands full of mosquitos. It was anything but awesome. Still, we managed to have (somewhat) of a good time!
The boys had a blast when it came to activities! They got to shoot archery, BB guns, go panning for gold, make gumball machines from wooden kits, go horseback riding, practice roping, do pioneering, learn about nature and camp skills like making apple cobbler over a camp fire. Two days packed full of events! They enjoyed the nightly campfire, the daily flag ceremonies, taking turns being waiters in the dining hall and even attending a flag retirement ceremony. They even enjoyed morning chores...feeding the horses, taking out the garbage, washing dishes and sweeping the dining hall. I think their favorite part was the Western Show on the last day put on by all the camp leaders. All in all, it was a fun couple of days and it will be a campout that they never forget!!
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| Gilbert Ranch at Butte Creek - main street at camp |
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| Tents at our camp spot |
Monday, July 23, 2012
M&M's turns 4!!
Happy Birthday to my baby boy M&Ms! I cannot believe that it's been 4 years already...four short years since I was blessed with the most imaginative, funny, happy, outgoing, active, smiley, sweet little boy!!
Today was full of excitement and fun as we hosted his birthday at the water park (one of his favorite places to go) with all his friends! The sun took its sweet time coming out, but when it arrived, it was a beautiful day!
After party time, we had another celebration with family at nana and papas house. Daddy made his favorite dinner, spaghetti, followed by cake, ice cream, and presents! By the time we got home, the poor birthday was tuckered out!
Happy Birthday, buddy! Mommy loves you so very much!
Today was full of excitement and fun as we hosted his birthday at the water park (one of his favorite places to go) with all his friends! The sun took its sweet time coming out, but when it arrived, it was a beautiful day!
After party time, we had another celebration with family at nana and papas house. Daddy made his favorite dinner, spaghetti, followed by cake, ice cream, and presents! By the time we got home, the poor birthday was tuckered out!
Happy Birthday, buddy! Mommy loves you so very much!
Friday, July 20, 2012
No place like home
Home sweet home. I have missed you! Warm, comfy pillow top bed...I can't wait to cuddle with you tonight! Hopefully the kiddos will sleep good tonight in their own beds so that I can sleep in! (fingers crossed please!)
Happy Weekend!!
Happy Weekend!!
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Annoyed...
Disclaimer: needing to vent...not your typical warm and fuzzy post
A family vacation is supposed to be a place where adults and children alike can have fun, be themselves and create wonderful memories together. This is a family vacation I was looking forward to...a possible "tradition" with memories like my husband had growing up. It's been 5 days and so far, I am not impressed.
The lake is beautiful, the food is good, the condo is nice, the weather is perfect and I am so happy that there are several different pools and areas for my boys to swim. Best part is that I get to spend time with my hubby and kids! Everything else, not so much.
First things first, my kids are great kids. Yes the boys have their arguments and they fight but in all, they rarely act out in public. My daughter is 10 months old...she's your typical baby, but very easy going and usually always happy! I love my kids and they deserve to be treated with respect. Period.
That being said, my poor kids have had a rough couple of days. "Stop yelling, no running, don't fight, leave me alone, don't do that, come here, don't touch that, you're driving me crazy, eat your food, clean up your mess, don't get your toys out, get out of the kitchen, don't tattle, etc." I'm sick of it. They are kids. Let them play, let them run, let them eat junk if they want, let them use their imagination, pick up your crap if you don't want them to touch it, leave if they are bothering you, and next time, don't plan a "family vacation" if you don't want my kids around. Afterall, they ARE family.
Secondly, I am human. I have feelings too. I may make a mistake, we all do, but I don't need you to jump down my throat about it. I may not eat everything you do, but that doesn't mean that there is "something wrong with me", it means that we are different; if you can't accept that, I feel sorry for you. I also don't need you judging how much I eat because I have lost 14lbs WITHOUT your help. I have been a mother for 9.5 years, don't tell me how to parent my children. Better yet, don't tell me or my children what to do. I am not your nanny. When I ask you a question, I don't need your condescending remarks; I am not an idiot. I'm sorry that you feel the need to talk to me like a child, but I won't be sorry if I call you out in front of everyone. I am 27 yrs old and I can hold my own. I have a college degree, a stable AWESOME job and more than enough friends; I don't need you. I own my car, I have a house, I have the best husband and family ever. In other words, YES, I am better than you.
I am sorry you feel that my kids, myself and my hubby are an inconvenience to you and your vacation. We don't need your approval or entertainment; we ROCK all by ourselves! Next time you want a "family vacation", don't invite me. MY family will take our own vacation and it will be the BEST vacation ever!
Beautiful sunset on this crummy day... can still make me smile!
A family vacation is supposed to be a place where adults and children alike can have fun, be themselves and create wonderful memories together. This is a family vacation I was looking forward to...a possible "tradition" with memories like my husband had growing up. It's been 5 days and so far, I am not impressed.
The lake is beautiful, the food is good, the condo is nice, the weather is perfect and I am so happy that there are several different pools and areas for my boys to swim. Best part is that I get to spend time with my hubby and kids! Everything else, not so much.
First things first, my kids are great kids. Yes the boys have their arguments and they fight but in all, they rarely act out in public. My daughter is 10 months old...she's your typical baby, but very easy going and usually always happy! I love my kids and they deserve to be treated with respect. Period.
That being said, my poor kids have had a rough couple of days. "Stop yelling, no running, don't fight, leave me alone, don't do that, come here, don't touch that, you're driving me crazy, eat your food, clean up your mess, don't get your toys out, get out of the kitchen, don't tattle, etc." I'm sick of it. They are kids. Let them play, let them run, let them eat junk if they want, let them use their imagination, pick up your crap if you don't want them to touch it, leave if they are bothering you, and next time, don't plan a "family vacation" if you don't want my kids around. Afterall, they ARE family.
Secondly, I am human. I have feelings too. I may make a mistake, we all do, but I don't need you to jump down my throat about it. I may not eat everything you do, but that doesn't mean that there is "something wrong with me", it means that we are different; if you can't accept that, I feel sorry for you. I also don't need you judging how much I eat because I have lost 14lbs WITHOUT your help. I have been a mother for 9.5 years, don't tell me how to parent my children. Better yet, don't tell me or my children what to do. I am not your nanny. When I ask you a question, I don't need your condescending remarks; I am not an idiot. I'm sorry that you feel the need to talk to me like a child, but I won't be sorry if I call you out in front of everyone. I am 27 yrs old and I can hold my own. I have a college degree, a stable AWESOME job and more than enough friends; I don't need you. I own my car, I have a house, I have the best husband and family ever. In other words, YES, I am better than you.
I am sorry you feel that my kids, myself and my hubby are an inconvenience to you and your vacation. We don't need your approval or entertainment; we ROCK all by ourselves! Next time you want a "family vacation", don't invite me. MY family will take our own vacation and it will be the BEST vacation ever!
Beautiful sunset on this crummy day... can still make me smile!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
The perfect storm
For those of you who don't know me well, I am a wuss. I hate storms. I become like a child (or even worse, like a dog) and I pull the covers up over my head or I go hide in a room without any windows. My heart starts racing, my palms get sweaty and I get tense. I cannot even tell you why I am so terrified, because I don't even know! But I have ALWAYS been that way. Terrified.
So here I am, it's 2:30 in the morning, my boys are sleeping on the floor, the baby is next to me in her pack-n-play, and my hubby is snoring. I'm not sleeping and my mind is wandering. I'm lying here listening to the sound of the rain. It sounds like an overflowing downspout outside my window...hitting the pavement with such force. I turn my body to adjust my pillow, and *BOOM* I hear a loud clap of thunder (and nearly peed myself). Within a blink of an eye, there was a bright powerful bolt of lightning lighting up the bedroom. I froze. I was terrified. Silent.
My body became tense and my heart started to race. I reached for the covers but couldn't find them. Then it strikes again...flash.boom boom.flash flash.boom...and I became frozen. This went on for a good 30-45 min. I just laid there, terrified. Everyone was sleeping, leaving me to witness the whole storm by myself.
After a few minutes, something changed. It all became sort of...peaceful. My mind began to clear, my body started to relax and I felt myself slipping into a place I've never been before. I didn't feel afraid. I wasn't frozen. I watched it, listened to it and felt it as it rolled through. The lightning was like a strobe light, flashing and flashing throughout the bedroom. The thunder sounded like a bass, bumping and booming in rhythm. My worries disappeared. My terror was gone. For right now and here in time, it's just me and the perfect storm.
Below is a picture of a storm over Lake Chelan courtesy of golakechelan.com
So here I am, it's 2:30 in the morning, my boys are sleeping on the floor, the baby is next to me in her pack-n-play, and my hubby is snoring. I'm not sleeping and my mind is wandering. I'm lying here listening to the sound of the rain. It sounds like an overflowing downspout outside my window...hitting the pavement with such force. I turn my body to adjust my pillow, and *BOOM* I hear a loud clap of thunder (and nearly peed myself). Within a blink of an eye, there was a bright powerful bolt of lightning lighting up the bedroom. I froze. I was terrified. Silent.
My body became tense and my heart started to race. I reached for the covers but couldn't find them. Then it strikes again...flash.boom boom.flash flash.boom...and I became frozen. This went on for a good 30-45 min. I just laid there, terrified. Everyone was sleeping, leaving me to witness the whole storm by myself.
After a few minutes, something changed. It all became sort of...peaceful. My mind began to clear, my body started to relax and I felt myself slipping into a place I've never been before. I didn't feel afraid. I wasn't frozen. I watched it, listened to it and felt it as it rolled through. The lightning was like a strobe light, flashing and flashing throughout the bedroom. The thunder sounded like a bass, bumping and booming in rhythm. My worries disappeared. My terror was gone. For right now and here in time, it's just me and the perfect storm.
Below is a picture of a storm over Lake Chelan courtesy of golakechelan.com
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Hellllloooo Vacation!
Hello Sunshine!
Hello pool!
Hello lake!
Helllllloooo Vacation!!
Beautiful Lake Chelan, it's so nice to finally meet you! Where have you been my whole life??? I'm in love with you! It's fact.
Crystal clear pools, beautiful blue lake water, hot and sunny skies, and a nice COLD air conditioned condo. Add in a glass of wine and relaxing on the patio with my feet up....Perfection.
CHEERS to 9 wonderful days!
Hello pool!
Hello lake!
Helllllloooo Vacation!!
Beautiful Lake Chelan, it's so nice to finally meet you! Where have you been my whole life??? I'm in love with you! It's fact.
Crystal clear pools, beautiful blue lake water, hot and sunny skies, and a nice COLD air conditioned condo. Add in a glass of wine and relaxing on the patio with my feet up....Perfection.
CHEERS to 9 wonderful days!
MIA
Sooooo, you might be wondering, what happened to my blog. I realize it's been a month and a half since an entry was posted...all I can say is that I am sorry. I had all my blog posts saved because I wanted to add pictures that I couldn't get to off my iPhone (since I rarely EVER get to use our computer) and by the time I got to the computer, I accidentally deleted them. :/ Epic fail.
Fast forward. I'm moving on...
(I will post all previous posts at a later time.)
Fast forward. I'm moving on...
(I will post all previous posts at a later time.)
Monday, June 4, 2012
Here it goes!!
AdvoCare Cleanse, Day 1-
SUCCESS!! I did everything right, followed the rules and feel great!! I am
So determined to give 100%...at lunch today I freaked out over my salad dressing!!! I know that sounds ridiculous but friends, seriously, I have waited too long for this day and I am going to to everything in my power to follow it to A-T!!!
So here is my commitment:
I will not cheat
I will give it 110%
I will not fail...
I CAN DO THIS!!!
Happy Monday, here's to the next 9 days...CHEERS (with my super cool water bottle full of scrumptious h2o) ;)
SUCCESS!! I did everything right, followed the rules and feel great!! I am
So determined to give 100%...at lunch today I freaked out over my salad dressing!!! I know that sounds ridiculous but friends, seriously, I have waited too long for this day and I am going to to everything in my power to follow it to A-T!!!
So here is my commitment:
I will not cheat
I will give it 110%
I will not fail...
I CAN DO THIS!!!
Happy Monday, here's to the next 9 days...CHEERS (with my super cool water bottle full of scrumptious h2o) ;)
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Happy notes!
Friends, today I have some A-MA-ZING happy notes to share with you!!
T's Happy Notes Part 4 -
ADVOCARE- helllllloooooo healthy goodness!!! I am so unbelievably happy and excited to start my 10 day Herbal Cleanse (and possibly lead into a 24day Challenge) that I can hardly wait until Monday morning!!!!!!! Step number 2 on way to getting fit and healthy for ME!
Swim Lessons- the boys start their second week of swim lessons this week and I am so happy that they are doing so well! One thing you must know, my boys are both very afraid of water, so swim lessons was a MUST this summer. They are loving it and I am one proud mommy watching them have so much fun with their swim teacher!!
Summer break- 9 DAYS!!!! Actually, 8 1/2 days :). I am so excited to spend this summer with my kiddos and I am looking forward to our much needed family vacation in July! We are going to have so much fun this summer...please let these next nine days be good to me and go by quickly!!
I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!! Wish me luck on my new journey!!
CHEERS!!!
T's Happy Notes Part 4 -
ADVOCARE- helllllloooooo healthy goodness!!! I am so unbelievably happy and excited to start my 10 day Herbal Cleanse (and possibly lead into a 24day Challenge) that I can hardly wait until Monday morning!!!!!!! Step number 2 on way to getting fit and healthy for ME!
Swim Lessons- the boys start their second week of swim lessons this week and I am so happy that they are doing so well! One thing you must know, my boys are both very afraid of water, so swim lessons was a MUST this summer. They are loving it and I am one proud mommy watching them have so much fun with their swim teacher!!
Summer break- 9 DAYS!!!! Actually, 8 1/2 days :). I am so excited to spend this summer with my kiddos and I am looking forward to our much needed family vacation in July! We are going to have so much fun this summer...please let these next nine days be good to me and go by quickly!!
I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!! Wish me luck on my new journey!!
CHEERS!!!
Thursday, May 31, 2012
One step forward
Before my doctor said I could start exercising, I thought of all the things I wanted to do. When I was given the go, I told myself "you've got this...you can do it!!" So I set my goals and I have started down a path to reach them.
And here I go...
I ordered my AdvoCare cleanse and I start it on Monday! 10 day challenge - bring it on! I also started walking after work with my co-worker and friend. We walk a brisk, fast pace and complete 2 miles on average, three times a week. Go us!!
I am super excited to keep updating on my progress and I hope you will join me on my journey! My #1 ultimate goal is to get fit and be healthy for ME!! The rest, will all fall into place :)
CHEERS friends!
Photo- (http://fitgurl4life.tumblr.com/post/24168145327/myfitness-app-is-that-what-it-is)
And here I go...
I ordered my AdvoCare cleanse and I start it on Monday! 10 day challenge - bring it on! I also started walking after work with my co-worker and friend. We walk a brisk, fast pace and complete 2 miles on average, three times a week. Go us!!
I am super excited to keep updating on my progress and I hope you will join me on my journey! My #1 ultimate goal is to get fit and be healthy for ME!! The rest, will all fall into place :)
CHEERS friends!
Photo- (http://fitgurl4life.tumblr.com/post/24168145327/myfitness-app-is-that-what-it-is)
Monday, May 28, 2012
Happy Memorial Day
To all the brave men and women who serve our country...
To all the brave souls who died in the line of duty...
To all the families of those who serve in the military...
I salute you!
Thank you for your bravery and your sacrifices. Thank you for our freedom!
To all the brave souls who died in the line of duty...
To all the families of those who serve in the military...
I salute you!
Thank you for your bravery and your sacrifices. Thank you for our freedom!
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Mrs. Maid
Laundry...check.
Dishes...check.
Clean bathroom...check.
Exhausted...double check!!
Sometimes the things we HAVE to do aren't so fun but it sure is nice having a clean house. If only there was money in the budget for a maid!! I know where I can find one for free...I guess it's one of the many "hats" I wear.
Keeping a house clean, especially one as small as ours, is quite a chore! I feel like I am constantly picking up toys and socks, or tripping over shoes in the doorway! I clean one thing only to turn around to something else being left out! I am forever finding my couch pillows on the floor or stuffed behind the couch, and the throw blankets thrown about. Oh man, these silly kids...but I wouldn't trade them for anything in the whole world!!
Starting today, however, I'm taking donations to hire a maid (or just pay myself!!)
Happy weekend friends!! I hope that you all are doing something more exciting than cleaning! ;)
Dishes...check.
Clean bathroom...check.
Exhausted...double check!!
Sometimes the things we HAVE to do aren't so fun but it sure is nice having a clean house. If only there was money in the budget for a maid!! I know where I can find one for free...I guess it's one of the many "hats" I wear.
Keeping a house clean, especially one as small as ours, is quite a chore! I feel like I am constantly picking up toys and socks, or tripping over shoes in the doorway! I clean one thing only to turn around to something else being left out! I am forever finding my couch pillows on the floor or stuffed behind the couch, and the throw blankets thrown about. Oh man, these silly kids...but I wouldn't trade them for anything in the whole world!!
Starting today, however, I'm taking donations to hire a maid (or just pay myself!!)
Happy weekend friends!! I hope that you all are doing something more exciting than cleaning! ;)
Friday, May 25, 2012
Happy Notes!
Happy Friday friends! Helllllooooo 3 day weekend!
T's Happy Notes Part 3 -
Memorial Day weekend - Long weekends are definitely my favorite! I am so very excited for this weekend in particular because my hubby will home all weekend!! That means we get to spend 3 wonderful days together as family! Maybe we will even get to do something fun...farmers market, bowling, movie night, BBQ??? Hmm...so excited!
Summer Break - Friends, there are only TWO MORE MONDAYS of school left!!! This makes me so very happy because that means that Summer Break is in sight! I get to (hopefully) enjoy beautiful weather, hang out with my kids, take vacation, sleep in and be reminded of the many un-paid benefits of this wonderful job I have! The positives of working in a school. :)
Yellow Tail, Merlot - I ♥ you! Thank you for jumping off the shelf into my basket so that I could bring you home and enjoy your deliciousness! You make my long, stressful days SO MUCH better! In the short three days you have been with me, I thank you for my sanity. We shall meet again...tomorrow maybe? OK, yum!
Friends, I hope that you have an awesome Memorial Day weekend! Do something FUN and be safe.
CHEERS!
T's Happy Notes Part 3 -
Memorial Day weekend - Long weekends are definitely my favorite! I am so very excited for this weekend in particular because my hubby will home all weekend!! That means we get to spend 3 wonderful days together as family! Maybe we will even get to do something fun...farmers market, bowling, movie night, BBQ??? Hmm...so excited!
Summer Break - Friends, there are only TWO MORE MONDAYS of school left!!! This makes me so very happy because that means that Summer Break is in sight! I get to (hopefully) enjoy beautiful weather, hang out with my kids, take vacation, sleep in and be reminded of the many un-paid benefits of this wonderful job I have! The positives of working in a school. :)
Yellow Tail, Merlot - I ♥ you! Thank you for jumping off the shelf into my basket so that I could bring you home and enjoy your deliciousness! You make my long, stressful days SO MUCH better! In the short three days you have been with me, I thank you for my sanity. We shall meet again...tomorrow maybe? OK, yum!
Friends, I hope that you have an awesome Memorial Day weekend! Do something FUN and be safe.
CHEERS!
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Unexpected surprises
Woke up at 6:15 a.m. to be to work early. Left the house late, hit every red light, got stuck behind two school buses and ended up arriving to work ON TIME. Boo.
Started my day off with a staff training (didn't go as bad as expected...) and it was go time until 4pm when I couldn't get out of there fast enough. Long day. Enough said. All I wanted to do was go home and relax (as much as I can with 3 young kids!). Stop #1- picking up M&M's and Almond Joy from daycare. Stop #2- picking up Kit Kat from after school care. Stop #3- home!!!! And then it all hit me like a ton of bricks... Oh wait, nothing at home to make for dinner!! Add grocery shopping. Oh man, I forgot it's Tuesday and that means Kit Kat has scouts tonight...add that in. Soccer practice?? YES! Oh boy, I'm going to go crazy...too much to do, so little time and all I want to do is go home and relax!!! *sigh*
As I am arriving to the grocery store , I get a call from the hubby. "Hey babe, no work tonight, I'm on my way home!" YIPEE!!!!!!!!!!! And as I am wandering the store I get a message "scouts cancelled for tonight, see you next week"....and I start silently cheering THANK GOODNESS!!! The next thing I know we are checking out and it's...oops, past soccer time. WHAT!?! Ahhh!! Then I thought, "hmm. I went from crazy busy to forgetful mom and it feels.....AMAZING!!!" It really did feel amazing.
Within minuets I was home, making pasta, enjoying the unexpected company of my hubby. We all sat down together as a family, had a wonderful dinner (prepared by yours truly), and I sat back and enjoyed not one but TWO glasses of vino. As I sipped each wonderful drop from my glass, I thought to myself, "now this is the life!"
CHEERS friends!!
Started my day off with a staff training (didn't go as bad as expected...) and it was go time until 4pm when I couldn't get out of there fast enough. Long day. Enough said. All I wanted to do was go home and relax (as much as I can with 3 young kids!). Stop #1- picking up M&M's and Almond Joy from daycare. Stop #2- picking up Kit Kat from after school care. Stop #3- home!!!! And then it all hit me like a ton of bricks... Oh wait, nothing at home to make for dinner!! Add grocery shopping. Oh man, I forgot it's Tuesday and that means Kit Kat has scouts tonight...add that in. Soccer practice?? YES! Oh boy, I'm going to go crazy...too much to do, so little time and all I want to do is go home and relax!!! *sigh*
As I am arriving to the grocery store , I get a call from the hubby. "Hey babe, no work tonight, I'm on my way home!" YIPEE!!!!!!!!!!! And as I am wandering the store I get a message "scouts cancelled for tonight, see you next week"....and I start silently cheering THANK GOODNESS!!! The next thing I know we are checking out and it's...oops, past soccer time. WHAT!?! Ahhh!! Then I thought, "hmm. I went from crazy busy to forgetful mom and it feels.....AMAZING!!!" It really did feel amazing.
Within minuets I was home, making pasta, enjoying the unexpected company of my hubby. We all sat down together as a family, had a wonderful dinner (prepared by yours truly), and I sat back and enjoyed not one but TWO glasses of vino. As I sipped each wonderful drop from my glass, I thought to myself, "now this is the life!"
CHEERS friends!!
Monday, May 21, 2012
Crumbling
Have you ever had the feeling that the world was falling down around you? That no matter how hard you try to keep the peace and the balance, it's just not enough? Have you ever felt like you were swimming and swimming yet drowning at the same time? Like you are holding the world on your shoulders and waiting for one..more..thing...to come crumbling down on top of you? Waiting and hoping it doesn't happen yet praying for strength in the event that it does. Tired. Exhausted. Broken.
I have so much to be thankful for in my life and I feel so blessed for everything and everyone who is a part of it. I have love, happiness, laughter, great friends and an awesome family. Anyone who knows me knows I would do anything for my loved ones...anything. I would make sure they were safe, protected, loved and important. I am fairly certain that they know that but if they don't, they should.
Lately, I have felt like I have been so busy and focused trying to help out certain people who need me that I have been neglecting other important relationships in my life. I've been putting their needs first and taking care of their "problems" and overlooking my own. That's what I do. When a family member needs me, I am there, whole hearted. Unfortunately, this time I feel like I can't help. The harder I try, the deeper I get and the more I realize, I am scared. I am scared of the unknown. I am scared at what I have discovered. I am scared of what the future holds and where the road is leading. I am scared to stop trying but I am also scared to keep going. I am frozen. I can feel the ground start crumbling underneath me...
My husband is my rock. He is there to save me from the dark hole and pull me back to reality. He is the one thing that I can count on to always be there, know no matter what. He will be there to rescue me. Hold me. Tell me he loves me and that it's all going to be ok. He is the man I cannot imagine my life without. Yet even with all his love and support, there is still that feeling of uncertainty from a not-so-far-away place...my "other" home.
"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."
~ unknown
I have so much to be thankful for in my life and I feel so blessed for everything and everyone who is a part of it. I have love, happiness, laughter, great friends and an awesome family. Anyone who knows me knows I would do anything for my loved ones...anything. I would make sure they were safe, protected, loved and important. I am fairly certain that they know that but if they don't, they should.
Lately, I have felt like I have been so busy and focused trying to help out certain people who need me that I have been neglecting other important relationships in my life. I've been putting their needs first and taking care of their "problems" and overlooking my own. That's what I do. When a family member needs me, I am there, whole hearted. Unfortunately, this time I feel like I can't help. The harder I try, the deeper I get and the more I realize, I am scared. I am scared of the unknown. I am scared at what I have discovered. I am scared of what the future holds and where the road is leading. I am scared to stop trying but I am also scared to keep going. I am frozen. I can feel the ground start crumbling underneath me...
My husband is my rock. He is there to save me from the dark hole and pull me back to reality. He is the one thing that I can count on to always be there, know no matter what. He will be there to rescue me. Hold me. Tell me he loves me and that it's all going to be ok. He is the man I cannot imagine my life without. Yet even with all his love and support, there is still that feeling of uncertainty from a not-so-far-away place...my "other" home.
"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."
~ unknown
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Happiness is...
...a glass of wine after a long day.
...waking up to a little girls smile.
...listening to the imagination of little boys playing.
...a hot cup of coffee after a sleepless night.
...family.
We have had my nephew at our house this weekend for a sleepover and he and M&M's have had such a blast! They are the best of friends and I love watching them and listening to them play. Occasionally, like brothers, they fight and yell but for the most part, they get along great. I am so happy they are so close in age and have each other to entertain!
As I sit here and write, I look around at my house and wonder...WTH happened in here!?! Every Lego, puzzle, book, car, train, and toy is out of it's bucket and strewn from one end of the house to the other. There are Ninja Turtle guys without heads, Mr. Potato heads missing limbs and random pieces of hot wheels throughout the hall. The beds are bare from them trying to build forts and the clothes hampers and completely emptied. Most people would be quick to judge saying "Why aren't you supervising them? How could you let they make such a mess?" Friends, it's simple...they are 3 yr old boys...and they are as happy as can be! Sure it will be a challenge later making them pick it all up, but as long as they are laughing, having fun and aren't fighting, then who am I to rush in and ruin their fun? Gosh, I love them SO MUCH!!
Happiness is a messy house and happy kids :)
CHEERS!
...waking up to a little girls smile.
...listening to the imagination of little boys playing.
...a hot cup of coffee after a sleepless night.
...family.
We have had my nephew at our house this weekend for a sleepover and he and M&M's have had such a blast! They are the best of friends and I love watching them and listening to them play. Occasionally, like brothers, they fight and yell but for the most part, they get along great. I am so happy they are so close in age and have each other to entertain!
As I sit here and write, I look around at my house and wonder...WTH happened in here!?! Every Lego, puzzle, book, car, train, and toy is out of it's bucket and strewn from one end of the house to the other. There are Ninja Turtle guys without heads, Mr. Potato heads missing limbs and random pieces of hot wheels throughout the hall. The beds are bare from them trying to build forts and the clothes hampers and completely emptied. Most people would be quick to judge saying "Why aren't you supervising them? How could you let they make such a mess?" Friends, it's simple...they are 3 yr old boys...and they are as happy as can be! Sure it will be a challenge later making them pick it all up, but as long as they are laughing, having fun and aren't fighting, then who am I to rush in and ruin their fun? Gosh, I love them SO MUCH!!
Happiness is a messy house and happy kids :)
CHEERS!
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
back to being ME
I am a fighter.
I am determined.
I am a survivor.
I am...ME.
Today was a milestone for me. I have been waiting for over 3 months for the "ALL CLEAR" sign. For the "you can get back to being you" sign. For the "congratulations you are healed" sign. For those three words that some take for granted...
You.
Can.
EXERCISE!!!
It felt amazing! I was grinning from ear to ear and so happy with excitement. I can't wait to get my body back...get back to being me. The me that can wear my old clothes. The me that felt "skinny". The me that was happy, confident and could wear my jeans without having a muffin top. I can't wait to feel that again. I can't wait to wear yoga pants in public (yes, I did that) and not feel like my butt jiggles. I can't wait to start running and feeling the wind blowing on my face. I can't wait to see the scale go down instead of up. I can't wait to wear a swim suit this summer...notice I didn't say bikini because lets be real, there is clearly not enough time for THAT! Ha! I. Cant. Wait!!!
Friends, today is a glorious day! Here is to the beginning of my journey to getting skinny!! CHEERS!
I am determined.
I am a survivor.
I am...ME.
Today was a milestone for me. I have been waiting for over 3 months for the "ALL CLEAR" sign. For the "you can get back to being you" sign. For the "congratulations you are healed" sign. For those three words that some take for granted...
You.
Can.
EXERCISE!!!
It felt amazing! I was grinning from ear to ear and so happy with excitement. I can't wait to get my body back...get back to being me. The me that can wear my old clothes. The me that felt "skinny". The me that was happy, confident and could wear my jeans without having a muffin top. I can't wait to feel that again. I can't wait to wear yoga pants in public (yes, I did that) and not feel like my butt jiggles. I can't wait to start running and feeling the wind blowing on my face. I can't wait to see the scale go down instead of up. I can't wait to wear a swim suit this summer...notice I didn't say bikini because lets be real, there is clearly not enough time for THAT! Ha! I. Cant. Wait!!!
Friends, today is a glorious day! Here is to the beginning of my journey to getting skinny!! CHEERS!
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Happy Mother's Day
What an amazing weekend! I have been spoiled...with love!
Saturday began with a wonderful surprise at Kit Kat's soccer game. My parents and my cousin from Washington showed up!! We all enjoyed the game and cheering Kit Kat and his team on. After the game, they left and we went home for lunch. We hung out, napped, and had a nice afternoon at home before getting ready for a fun filled evening. My parents built an outdoor movie theatre (think of a drive-in movei theatre except on the lawn in chairs instead of cars) and they invited us over for movies at dark. We had a nice family dinner at Red Robin before heading over there. When we got there, I had a wonderful surprise...my bestest friend was there!! I haven't seen her in way too long and it brought a huge smile to my face!! There was also a lot more family there...grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins...its was truely a fun filled evening!!
Sunday, we were up bright and early to meet the rest of the family for Mother's Day breakfast. I got to see my cousin again before she headed back home and even my uncle joined us! (Happy Mother's Day to him!!) Breakfast was nice and my wonderful kids gave me a beautiful mothers necklace (with special thanks to Nana and Papa)!! After we left breakfast, we stopped and picked up some beautiful flowers and a sweet card for my sister-in-law and surprised her at work to deliver them. She is an amazing mom and we wanted her to know how special is!! She loved it. :) Once we got home my wonderful husband let me take a nap...a 3 hr nap...and it felt AMAZING!! He also made me a wonderful dinner (which he does most everynight anyways!). I feel so loved...and so incredibly lucky!
Happy Mother's Day! I hope you had a wonderful day full of love and happiness :)
Saturday began with a wonderful surprise at Kit Kat's soccer game. My parents and my cousin from Washington showed up!! We all enjoyed the game and cheering Kit Kat and his team on. After the game, they left and we went home for lunch. We hung out, napped, and had a nice afternoon at home before getting ready for a fun filled evening. My parents built an outdoor movie theatre (think of a drive-in movei theatre except on the lawn in chairs instead of cars) and they invited us over for movies at dark. We had a nice family dinner at Red Robin before heading over there. When we got there, I had a wonderful surprise...my bestest friend was there!! I haven't seen her in way too long and it brought a huge smile to my face!! There was also a lot more family there...grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins...its was truely a fun filled evening!!
Sunday, we were up bright and early to meet the rest of the family for Mother's Day breakfast. I got to see my cousin again before she headed back home and even my uncle joined us! (Happy Mother's Day to him!!) Breakfast was nice and my wonderful kids gave me a beautiful mothers necklace (with special thanks to Nana and Papa)!! After we left breakfast, we stopped and picked up some beautiful flowers and a sweet card for my sister-in-law and surprised her at work to deliver them. She is an amazing mom and we wanted her to know how special is!! She loved it. :) Once we got home my wonderful husband let me take a nap...a 3 hr nap...and it felt AMAZING!! He also made me a wonderful dinner (which he does most everynight anyways!). I feel so loved...and so incredibly lucky!
Happy Mother's Day! I hope you had a wonderful day full of love and happiness :)
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| Mother's Day picture made by M&M's |
Thursday, May 10, 2012
one UN-happy camper
One of the toughest things for me as a mom is seeing and hearing my kids in pain. It makes me feel so helpless and sad. My little Almond Joy is cutting teeth again and she has been so grouchy and miserable. Poor girl has been running a mild fever, crying and not sleeping a wink. She want to cuddle but then doesn't, she falls asleep then wakes up, and she just wont stop crying or being fussy. I wish I could make her pain go away and make her feel better! I know it will all be over soon but it just breaks my heart! She is growing up too fast!!
Here is to tooth #3...cheers. :(
Here is to tooth #3...cheers. :(
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Picture Time
Went to get the kids' pictures taken yesterday without much success at a good group photo. I think my husband was so frustrated at the thought of not getting one good one, that he stepped in (which is a BIG deal because he is anti-family picture man) with the kids. Ironically, that's the only one of all the kids that turned out decent. There were several great individual ones of the kids so we called it a day. I had purchased two Groupons, so I scheduled another appointment to return Sunday.
Pictures round two went a lot better! This time we got a handful of great group shots of the kids and a great one of the kids and myself. Everyone was in a much better mood and we got some more great individual shots as well! Almond Joy's pictures turned out SO CUTE!
I love getting pictures done of the kids! Thank you husband for my wonderful Mother's Day present and letting me buy the picture CD and some prints to put in the frames on the wall :) I am one happy momma!!
Pictures round two went a lot better! This time we got a handful of great group shots of the kids and a great one of the kids and myself. Everyone was in a much better mood and we got some more great individual shots as well! Almond Joy's pictures turned out SO CUTE!
I love getting pictures done of the kids! Thank you husband for my wonderful Mother's Day present and letting me buy the picture CD and some prints to put in the frames on the wall :) I am one happy momma!!
Friday, May 4, 2012
TGIF!!
Holy moly...we made it to Friday! This week was a rough one for sure. You can tell that the end of the school year is near. The kids are hyped up, the teachers are pulling their hair out and I am swamped!! It's a good thing that I love my job :).
Even though it was a stressful week, I am super excited and looking forward to an awesome weekend! Big plans include coffee date with a girlfriend (a much needed coffee date I might add), Kit Kat's soccer game, kids' photo session and fun family time! Ah, yes, I love weekends!!
What are your plans this weekend??
Hope you have a super fun weekend friends :)
Even though it was a stressful week, I am super excited and looking forward to an awesome weekend! Big plans include coffee date with a girlfriend (a much needed coffee date I might add), Kit Kat's soccer game, kids' photo session and fun family time! Ah, yes, I love weekends!!
What are your plans this weekend??
Hope you have a super fun weekend friends :)
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
FREE is an excellent price
Happy May day! I can't believe how quickly this year is flying by. I also can't believe this amazing, gorgeous weather we are having...so unusual but oh so lovely!!
Today I have to share with you a great photo that one of my bestest friends sent to me. It made me smile! It has been a very trying week so far at work, and this made everything better! There are very few things in life that are free but those that are, are simply priceless.
Friendship.
Love.
Smiles.
Happiness.
and sweet, sweet, Lemonade.
CHEERS!
Today I have to share with you a great photo that one of my bestest friends sent to me. It made me smile! It has been a very trying week so far at work, and this made everything better! There are very few things in life that are free but those that are, are simply priceless.
Friendship.
Love.
Smiles.
Happiness.
and sweet, sweet, Lemonade.
CHEERS!
Monday, April 30, 2012
A case of the Mondays
Ugh, the first day following the weekend. The dreaded start to the work week. The "I'm tired, I don't want to go to school today mom!" The only day I honestly wish we could skip...Ah yes, Monday.
Let me sum up my day-
Let me sum up my day-
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Feeling Blue
Sad. Missed. Hurt. Blue.
I can't help but feel this way today. I have tried to pull myself through and climb my way out but today, it's difficult. I guess we all have those days where the sun is blocked behind the clouds...or the smile is hidden behind the tears. I don't want to feel this way, but I do. I think anyone in my shoes would feel this way...
I have an amazing family which I love so very much. I am the oldest of four kids and the first born daughter to my amazing parents. There is a large age gap between myself and my youngest brother, but I have always felt close to my siblings, especially my sister. My mom is one of my best friends in the whole world...I don't know what I would do without her. Ever since I moved out, got married and started a family, I have never felt disconnected from them...until today.
Family photos should be just that...FAMILY photos. At first when my mom said that they were getting family photos done, it didn't bother me. I didn't really think about it, let it process and sink in. It didn't hit me until today that those family photos didn't include me. After I started to think about it, the more it became real. My family was getting professional "family" photos done and I wasn't invited to take part in them. I guess they figure I have "my own family" now...and I don't fit in to theirs.
So I went on to feel sorry for myself. It pretty much turned my whole weekend upside down. Here was this important event happening without one key person. Me. Photos aren't something that can talk, and explain their meaning. Photos are lifetime memories that tell their own story. Memories of love, happiness, milestones...and family. Photos last forever and I'm pretty sure the sad, missed and hurt feelings will last as long as those "family" photos will.
I can't help but feel this way today. I have tried to pull myself through and climb my way out but today, it's difficult. I guess we all have those days where the sun is blocked behind the clouds...or the smile is hidden behind the tears. I don't want to feel this way, but I do. I think anyone in my shoes would feel this way...
I have an amazing family which I love so very much. I am the oldest of four kids and the first born daughter to my amazing parents. There is a large age gap between myself and my youngest brother, but I have always felt close to my siblings, especially my sister. My mom is one of my best friends in the whole world...I don't know what I would do without her. Ever since I moved out, got married and started a family, I have never felt disconnected from them...until today.
Family photos should be just that...FAMILY photos. At first when my mom said that they were getting family photos done, it didn't bother me. I didn't really think about it, let it process and sink in. It didn't hit me until today that those family photos didn't include me. After I started to think about it, the more it became real. My family was getting professional "family" photos done and I wasn't invited to take part in them. I guess they figure I have "my own family" now...and I don't fit in to theirs.
So I went on to feel sorry for myself. It pretty much turned my whole weekend upside down. Here was this important event happening without one key person. Me. Photos aren't something that can talk, and explain their meaning. Photos are lifetime memories that tell their own story. Memories of love, happiness, milestones...and family. Photos last forever and I'm pretty sure the sad, missed and hurt feelings will last as long as those "family" photos will.
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